One of my favorite creative journeys began last year when my husband gave me a little set of moleskin notebooks for Christmas. They were something I coveted every time we went to the art store but not something I would buy myself (they were a little spendy and to me it felt too indulgent- but it is the kind of thing that is great for a gift.) I was so excited to receive them and kept them in a cubby of my secretary desk.
Like many of my "special" art/craft items they remained untouched for quite awhile (it has taken me a little time to get over my tendency to not want to mess up my favorite items in my stash- weird I know but I am getting over it.) I look at an unused palette of watercolors, their cakes perfect, pristine, the white space unmarred by paint spillage and it sometimes takes me a while to dip my brush into a glass of water and forever change the paints appearance- but once I do, and I am in the moment, creating, painting (or drawing, preserving memories, etc.) I never look back. The palette may no longer be pristine but the smile on my face and fulfillment of my creative side and soul more than make up for the look of my "used" supplies.
So back to those moleskin books. I started carrying one around with a pen in my purse for downtime, a place for me to write down thoughts, doodle, journal for a project I am finishing. And I found that I was quickly filling the pages of this special journal in a way that I haven't since I spent hours making scrapbooks out of 3 ring binders, filled with notebook paper, photos cut from Tiger Beat magazine, some markers and scratch and sniff stickers. I have found a way to express myself in the moment, before the thought breezes right out of my brain during the busyness of the day...
I love these little books- their smooth black covers, the cream colored pages, the black pen in my hand creating little works of art. So simple. No need for photos, the newest products, no pressure. Just me. Just creating.
I wanted to share with you something I wrote down a couple of months ago inside one of my little moleskin journals-it's a phrase that I try to remember every time I feel uptight about messing up a special art supply or blocked creatively.
My wish for everyone today is to go forth and create today- remember, it's all art.
My dad ordered a beautiful flower arrangement and I delivered it to their favorite restaurant this afternoon.
How nice does it feel when people who work there, who know them from all the times they dine there, comment on how in love your parents are.
A couple of stories about their wedding day:
1. Their photographer double booked so friends and family took their photos- those photos have such intimacy and they look so real and relaxed- I know that it was hard that day but they are so beautiful now.
2. When I was little I used to tell everyone that I wasn't in any of the wedding photos because I was out front riding my tricycle (my poor mom- and no I wasn't there- I was born 2 years later, in 1970.)
3. My parents didn't have a camera and bought one on the way out of town for their honeymoon- when my mom bent down to look at the cameras in the case rice fell out of her hair and covered the top of the glass
(the clerk thought it was so sweet that they were newlyweds.)
My parents make it look easy. They have shown me that being friends is just as important as being in love.
They have been doing it right these past 40 years and I am so proud to be their daughter.
Went to make lunch and came upon this sweet little note written with a sharpie on some pizza- nice to have love notes even after almost 17 years together- it really just doesn't get much better than this.
I have been taking a photo of Ben and Emma at the end of each month and have finally decided to start an album with their photos.
I love seeing how much they have changed. I also love that they will sit long enough for me to take their photo. The only down sides are that they get so cheesy when the camera comes out (she smiles, he poses)- but I still love it- they must get it from me, and also it took about 15 shots to get a couple that look like this.
So worth it though- I'll be sure to look back through these when they are teenagers and I have to beg to take a photo-